On my own now

Eddie had to go to work this morning, so I'm here alone with the baby. I seem to do okay when it's just me, but I'm so scared that I won't be able to take care of Jake. Just looking at him sends me into a panic. As if I haven't been doing this for almost 9 months now. Babies are so unpredictable. You never know if they are going to start screaming. I'm such a wreck right now. I've been on the phone with my dad and he asked me to come over. I (somehow) got everything together and out into the car. The boy all bundled up and ready. Dogs in the car. Click click click click. My car won't start. Are you fucking kidding me??? I have a call into emergency roadside service right now to come and check my battery. But, today? Of all days? I just need to feel a little bit secure and I can't even have that. I'm gonna go cry now.