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  Well, hello there! After years of flirting with the idea, I've decided to go ahead and start my blog. My name's Thea (pen name). I found that sometimes I need to go somewhere to vent my thoughts and hopefully get some feedback. Here are some topics that I'd like to address:

Infertility/Loss - I've struggled with IF since about a year after I got married, although if I look back, it's a miracle I didn't get pregnant before that, so I've probably had these issues my whole life. Eddie and I started trying to get pregnant in 2005. We succeeded almost immediately and were elated. 8 weeks later I miscarried. We tried to start adoption procedures, but were told that we were "too young. You'll have your own children someday and regret it." Wow, right? We went through a year of fertility treatments...Clo.mid and IUI...with no luck at all. I did get pregnant again after all that, but miscarried again at about 6 weeks. We decided to wait until Eddie was done with school to go ahead with IVF and, Surprise! We got pregnant again. This one stuck and we got little Jack in June of 2010. Don't know when we are going to try again, but we aren't doing anything to prevent it at this point. 

Marriage - Eddie and I got married in 2004 when I was 24 and he was 22. We had known each other for years before that, so it didn't really seem like we got married very young. It just felt right. We have our issues, like every couple, but we are committed to our marriage and our family. 

Anxiety - This seems to be the big one right now. I've struggled with anxiety and panic attacks since I was 14 years old, but they really got bad when I was 20. I've been on medication ever since and am coming to the realization that I probably will be forever. Pa.xil seemed to be working the best for me, but started petering out over the last year, so I'm in the process of switching meds and it is no fun. I've been having multiple panic attacks daily and am just trying to make it through each day. 

That's pretty much it for now. Leave me a message and we'll chat. I hope to be a source of strength as well as strengthed by my blog. Here goes!


Thea